poetic side...

From me, about me.. :P ;)
ఆమె  రమ్యమైనది ...
ఆమె  స్వరం కమ్మనైనది...
ఆమె గీతం పాడదగినది...
ఆమె జ్ఞాపకం నా జీవితమైనది ...

for friends ...
భయం !!!
నా కళ్ళల్లో కలగా మిగిలిపోతావని ...
నా చేతుల్లో బొమ్మలా జారిపోతావని ...
నా గుండెల్లో శిలలా ఉండిపోతావని ..
నా ఊహల్లో మాయలా చెదిరిపోతావని ...
నా జీవితంలో జ్ఞాపకంలా మిగిలిపోతావని ....

space...

Another 'S' post...
oh science freaks out there, its not about universe-space-big bang...
not the real estate space to build your house, sell n buy land..
not space in your home to decorate things, furniture..

It's about Space, for your self, from you, for you...
Time for yourself.. to think about yourself...
I'm not asking you to be selfish, but thinking about you and only you is very important..
not about any one, not about parents, friends, lover or any one...
and after all you should be fine to be happy with all those around..


all are very busy, tight schedules, so not to spare at least 1 hr for our selves,
so all i say, just 5 minutes, in between you lying on bed and going into sleep..


enjoy your freedom in your space..
we sacrifice few things for few reasons..
it's nothing but losing our space..
unable to do every thing we want to do..
on the other hand we cannot be rebels..
we ought to do things as such..
so thinking about ourselves for 5 minutes a day isn't too much,
recording and revising our daily progress...
so that if we have missed any small small things carrying big big surprises and happiness,
we can burst them and enjoy...





 
 

satisfaction!!!

Satisfaction !!!

What is this??
I'm just trying to look positive in all, 
coz positive points keep us moving forward and happy to some extent 
but there is always some thing which makes us feel a bit sad, 
like a pin pricking, an ant bite, a small one,  
inside heart, very deep, deeper than the deepest ocean..
you will be rich,  lots of people around you, 
but heart keeps on thinking about 1 thing or 1 some one.

Then it clicked to me,

satisfaction does not come from things, status etc
satisfaction is a heart's thing..

it does not come from having a lunch in 5 * hotel,
it comes even when eating in home with loved ones,
Many more like this...

so the differentiation starts...
mind wants some thing, heart wants some other thing..
so if both gets happy by the same thing.. then satisfaction comes into picture..

Then another point clicked...
is happiness different from satisfaction??
does one lead to other??
they must be different other wise why 2 2 names??(logic :P )
 you will be happy if you are satisfied, but not the other way always..

want to write some thing, so much but unable to coz of many reasons..
I'm happy at least I wrote this much today, but not satisfied... :P ;)

days go...but never return...

B.Tech....
People call it period of happy days...

But during the happy days,

I hated every one,
Saw only wrong points in all,
Wished college would end quickly,
Final yr be over soon,
Run out and live free up to what I want,
I wanted no one,
I wanted to be alone,
I am jealous,
I am curious,
I teased many, got teased by many :P ;)
I got hurt by many, I hurt many...

During the same happy days,
got many things,
Learned what life is,
learned to love without bounds,
First love,
First crush,
Life long friends,
Looking only the brighter side of every thing,
What not every thing...

When I 1st stepped out of house for college, with wet eyes,
I thought JUST 4yrs, will pass soon and I can come out soon,
But now,
Those just 4yrs have passed, like 4 days...
While walking to department,
sitting on these benches,
laughing in the lawn, in front of audi,
watching movies in room,
sollu in mess,
I feel the otmost nostalgia,
I can never have this fun ever, makes me feel bad,
I will in future, enjoy, have fun, tours and all, but it is all incomparable to what NITW and NIT friends, and especially VIKINGS gave me...

Love you NITW
Love you Vikings
Miss you all....

Be a Kid...

Some times, not some times, when time comes, it feels good,
Great to be a kid...
A full stop, ( not full stop at least a comma ) to all
competition, running, chasing, money, job, grades,
ahahahaaaa.... noooooo yukkkkk.....
feels as if caterpillars all over my body...
I am not like this before...
at least tried to pretend that i'm not...
I m just like a royal queen bee,
so reserved,
huh no jokes,
haan don't laugh hard,
But BB changed me..
brought out the true me..
As I used to be in school, when I was a kid..
jumping when the shot is good, teasing others, shouting, laughing the hell out, jokes...
No purpose, no regrets, no hard feelings, no limits, no start, no end...Just GAME....
Even while crying, cry so hard that the pain goes away with tears...
Paint as if you are picasso...
Play as if you are sachin,
Dance as if you are Hrithik...
Shout as if you are King Leonidas... :P

Love as if no one z on this earth...
Hate, scold, beat, kick, but forget and forgive after waking up in the new morning, Be a gajini...
Read, not for marks,
Play not for cup,

Be your self, Live, a life, for life, not for money, not for luxury, just for Happiness...

Power

Have you ever thought, not great ideas lead to success but power is one which makes path for achieving that idea....
I believe strongly in that opinion...
Power is not merely having rowdies and money around you, it's authority, a POSITION, in which you stay and are able to RULE...
This thought came up to my mind while preparing presentation about higher studies on Vivekananda's birthday, Jan 12th, so I asked the students there- eppudaina anukunnara nene kaani commissioner ayyi unte ila chese vaadini, nene kaani Collector ayyi unte district ni ila marchevaadini ani...
(self dabba) I loved my dialogues there..
My father used to tell, while discussing politics that, ideas are not enough, authoritative ga undali to achieve those ani...( He never told to whom he voted, Democracy it seems :P )
Then realized its importance when I was not selected for TAB last year..
And so contested for CR elections, to change, to do my part, which I believe I can not do for FREE..

Okay if you think enough of big stuffs... Here it is home stuff...
Order we follow in home while some work is assigned to us..
Father > Grand Father > Grand Mother > Mother > Sister/ Brother
Why this disparity??
If Dad asks you to do, the works gets completed in the next minute, if same work was given by sister, aa pove nuvve chesko is the immediate answer..
Its just authority, the Respect we give to the people at higher power...

No conclusions and no philosophies in this post... Just a thought and wanted to present.. :P ;)

Trust

Since few days, looking at people around me, who used to share utmost secrets and now switching their party to some one else is the basis for this post..

So was thinking what will be the Important element in any relationship ??

Its not friendship, 

not love, 

not any help or use with other...

Its one and only one Trust.. Belief...

Read a forward message recently- Trust is like giving some one the full power to destroy you and knowing that they will not do it...(some thing which sounds like this) 

and also a dialogue from movie Ala Modalaindhi, when Hero asks his mother- Ela telusthudhi aa ammayi kanabadithe, that she is the one...She replies putting her hand on his heart, Nuv decide ayinappudu...

This is very true and really touched my heart..

This is true not only in the issue of finding a girl friend, but in any case, any relationship..

You should decide..which means you should Believe ... 

Have faith that what ever happens, the worst in life, the worst in any case, you should not let them go..

hold hand firmly and believe that you can change for them, and they change for you (in a good way though :P )

They listen to you, they will be there for you...

The ability to forgive, which should be equivalent to a mother or father forgiving you...

why do relations break, why does distance between hearts grow??

Its just you lose the trust..

Heart becomes a rock, very hard to melt, may be because you got dumped, so that you never trust any one..

Never want to see them, never want to think about them, never want to spend with them,

But there a very powerful tool, TIME, which heals every thing..Wait for the correct time to get used to things or get things right...

just one thing..Bottom line of the post- never lose trust in dear ones, dont let others lose faith in you..

can it be true???

Was away from blog, writing it, managing it since few days, kinda busy sleeping playing and college, piling up topics to post..

This particular post is a small doubt ringing in my mind, since few ( no many) days, eating away half of my time..

What is the most painful thing??

Failure in job???

Missing your close ones???

Love ???

and any thing, and every thing you felt bad...

Do you find some thing common in all these??

I say it is REJECTION...

Every thing goes on fine, very well, lots of effort and struggle...

But if finally THE END result is you are rejected, makes some one feel the Bad the most..

As heard so often, Forgetting things is humans gift, but as it comes to things, you wish, you desire, to be with you, and it does not reach you...it can never be forgotten...

even if you get some thing better, or beautiful or great, the thing lost is lost for ever and the void remains a void for ever...