my life my rules

Hmmm.... very happy .... the reasons being many... the foremost one is joining in NITW, I simply feel proud of myself... The technozion and Spring Spree were truly awesome not in terms of enjoyment but the inspiration I gather from the events... I whole heartedly feel great about the event organizers, their dedication and hard work to make a thing happen and make it a success....lots of patience.... coming the events which made me happy were... winning 4th place in an event in tz...conundrum of death..(actually i didn't win anything, but i consider it that way, LOL ).... watching jahaaz till 2 A.M. (that too after a day long hard work for the above mentioned event ) is truly fun.... the thing which i think i missed was the laser show.... and this spring spree left me with loads of life time memories to carry throughout my life from college... The very 1st thing Sekhar kammula....I enjoy his movies a lot, and his speech was too good, nothing like a movie speech, it was really i...

This is abt the T activists' in the college... i hope it reaches them and they dont take it as a joke... a few days back i read that JP was manhandled and felt very bad.. and now today in the college they insulted one of the most senior faculties in the college... wat do they think abt themselves...they must respect his age, profession, and wat not..he is human... r v animals to beat each other for lives??ok..not even life here...huh... wat is this going to give them??? name??fame??state?? and yeah...wat abt the students who supported them?? they need a separate state???for wat??? jus think...how many of the students studying here r going to work here and serve their land... most of us want a pretty good job in a posh city, to enjoy life... or get a seat in very good college...y r u wasting ur time???jus because some one wanted this to happen??? and that some one is definitely not U, not ur FATHER, not ur MOTHER... i was in an auto some day...the auto driver was telling some thing ...

there is no one on this helly earth to care abt u... u feel dying at times because of ppl around u, their selfishness... u feel lonely and want to cry as hard as u can, till the tears dry up,feel thirsty,shout at the one at the top of ur voice, throw wat ever z in reach.... u feel as if all doors are closed, u are blocked in the middle of an island, searching fr a sight of some one to listen to u.... though some one tries to help u, u cant help urself shouting at them... and obviously the one in ur rescue, loses patience...and leaves u alone... but always only one thing happens that is u end up searching, searching and then realize that u r there fr u ... loneliness can be killed by helping urself, realizing true u... write a blog, its never angry, its the way u asked it to be... always cheerful, ready to listen to u, posts wat ever u want... im doing the same.... :D

few incidents happening these days resulted in this post... first time i ve realized that ppl dont value for each other... 1.they r all preset with pre occupied minds.... 2.wat ever they think is only correct, true and does nt even care of watz wrong wid the person in front of them.... 3.all they do is -- jus let themselves out of the issue by confirming that they r not responsible fr any of the things happening around... 4.why do u give value only to the one u wanted to... are the others suggesting u jokers, dont have any other work??? 5.u lose patience very easily, gets frustrated very easily, gets angry jus in seconds and immediately utter crap, and then job of mine is to be calm, be patient, listen to every useless word of urs, cool u down...why do u talk wen u dont have control over ur words.... 6.same happened with me, i asked fr time..i requested that i cant talk now...but then did u give me time??no...jus understand if i say i cant talk, need time to settle, i mean i DONT want ...

Fear ...... v often hear this word... coz ppl SUFFER frm various fears....but ..... ????? are all these real??? are all these worth??? then wat abt this???? fear of telling truth fear of accepting truth fear of accepting our own mistakes fear of lies fear of insecurity fear of insanity fear of behaving rude and also fear that others behave rude to our behaviour fear of losing someone or some thing fear that someone being ours fear of ours being someone elses why dont v appreciate others deeds??fear of losing our greatness??? why dont v accept someone as unique??fear of losing our identity??? why dont v accept someone as leader??fear of following them??? why dont v become a leader??fear of making someone follow us??? think.... :) :D :) :)

the day i found u... u were my only frnd.... but i dont know u properly,it was jus a mandatory to talk to u then... now i have lots of frnds ...but u have a spl place in my heart..... i annoyed u so much talking things which u dont like and pushed myself far away frm u.... v didnt talk fr few days....i didnt find much difference,but then a tear frm my eye, i still remember, told me to change jus fr u... i learnt i lost something..... theres nothing spl abt u...but i dont know y u r so spl... ur silence is one which kills me.... u made me cry, till then i dont even know one can cry fr a frnd... i was so strong in every thing which came across my life... except U....i was unable to leave u.... i always think abt u, i compare every thing with u,u dont know this anyway but i am.... the thought that u r ignoring me is like hell.... but then i jus received a ray of hope frm u.... u started talking to me...oh wow ...how beautiful it is to be like this.... i can spend hours together jus talkin...

hmmmm..... thinking abt where life is leading me??? why only this way ???? met many ppl in my journey so far... but why only few ppl are close to my heart.... every one r under the same roof then y dese differences... y dont ppl receive us as v r ???? y aint they tolerant to wat v do??? y do dey try to point out every thing v do??? y dont they like us?? y do they hate us??? is this insecurity or jealous ??? dont they have the fear of losing someone??? dont know the value of dear ones???? dont know how to judge ppl??and also doesnot know y they r judging??? is it ego or unable to understand???? now.... i learnt i m the one in those ppl mentioned above... a whole hearted thanks to my pals.... who tinged happiness to my life... who made me think broad.... i learnt to receive every one as they r now.... i ve learnt to be in their place wen ever i found a mistake in them.... then thought finding mistakes in others is very easy... finding mistakes in others is the ...