my life my rules

Fear ...... v often hear this word... coz ppl SUFFER frm various fears....but ..... ????? are all these real??? are all these worth??? then wat abt this???? fear of telling truth fear of accepting truth fear of accepting our own mistakes fear of lies fear of insecurity fear of insanity fear of behaving rude and also fear that others behave rude to our behaviour fear of losing someone or some thing fear that someone being ours fear of ours being someone elses why dont v appreciate others deeds??fear of losing our greatness??? why dont v accept someone as unique??fear of losing our identity??? why dont v accept someone as leader??fear of following them??? why dont v become a leader??fear of making someone follow us??? think.... :) :D :) :)

the day i found u... u were my only frnd.... but i dont know u properly,it was jus a mandatory to talk to u then... now i have lots of frnds ...but u have a spl place in my heart..... i annoyed u so much talking things which u dont like and pushed myself far away frm u.... v didnt talk fr few days....i didnt find much difference,but then a tear frm my eye, i still remember, told me to change jus fr u... i learnt i lost something..... theres nothing spl abt u...but i dont know y u r so spl... ur silence is one which kills me.... u made me cry, till then i dont even know one can cry fr a frnd... i was so strong in every thing which came across my life... except U....i was unable to leave u.... i always think abt u, i compare every thing with u,u dont know this anyway but i am.... the thought that u r ignoring me is like hell.... but then i jus received a ray of hope frm u.... u started talking to me...oh wow ...how beautiful it is to be like this.... i can spend hours together jus talkin...

hmmmm..... thinking abt where life is leading me??? why only this way ???? met many ppl in my journey so far... but why only few ppl are close to my heart.... every one r under the same roof then y dese differences... y dont ppl receive us as v r ???? y aint they tolerant to wat v do??? y do dey try to point out every thing v do??? y dont they like us?? y do they hate us??? is this insecurity or jealous ??? dont they have the fear of losing someone??? dont know the value of dear ones???? dont know how to judge ppl??and also doesnot know y they r judging??? is it ego or unable to understand???? now.... i learnt i m the one in those ppl mentioned above... a whole hearted thanks to my pals.... who tinged happiness to my life... who made me think broad.... i learnt to receive every one as they r now.... i ve learnt to be in their place wen ever i found a mistake in them.... then thought finding mistakes in others is very easy... finding mistakes in others is the ...

Y OU - The one who walked along wid me wen others left, this was my first encounter wid u and pretty impressed by the way u talked.... I couldnt remember properly ,how u looked,coz i didnot dare to look at u.... Days passed on and v became closer, started to share every thing.... The love YOU showed towards me is so pure... it made me very possessive.... YOU- touched my soul and heart... i felt like i was the princess of OUR world and u r my beautiful PRINCE.... wen ever my cell rings , i hear u calling my name.... wen ever i look into ur eyes , i feel the every happiness in the world... i feel very secured,happy,in ur arms.... i feel i ve nothing much required in this world,wen YOU r wid me....... no worries,no burdens,every problem vanishes jus like a bubble wid ur smile.... every HI frm u is a life saving drug fr me.... i wait each day,to hear a word frm u... i even cannot imagine a day widout u.... U r my life,I sacrificed my heart fr u...coz i know it would be safer wid u...

TAB is the name given to Technical association of Biotechnology in my College NITW,the very beautiful NITW.... 1st yr i dont know anything abt my dept,a bit of it,but in 2nd yr i was selected as the exe for TAB.... I worked considerably (not much though) and the whole yr i spent much of my time there.... i was sooooooo attached to the dept.. i entered 3rd yr....TAB interviewz time and after the results came, i came to know that i wasnt a member this time.... :( :'( i was very very disappointed ,depressed....i felt as if the bond between me and my patrino (refer narnia) was CUT.... its not a joke,not so funny as it seems while reading....coz im hurt,it seemed as if im LOST....i know therez nothing much to be worried here....nothing lost....but im feeling bad and sad....for every thing..... as an optimist i mustn't feel like this...i know, i was a member last time means jus to show i can...and now im not...jus because i have something much and better to do.... trying to r...

DAD .... as mom told me u waited very eagerly fr my first sight....very tensed.... feeling the whole hearted love fr me....u bit ur fingers like a child.... u took lots of pain....struggle....jus to see me grow happy.... u always wanted me to have the best in my life.... i still remember the times wen v spent together,happily,talking abt every thing,teasing mom,making her laugh,bday parties,fights,photos,dancing and all.....but i know these r all fr me jus fr My happiness... u never showed ur anger on me...in any time...but i never bothered y u r sad.... :( but now....the immediate thought that i cant spend time with u anymore....v cant enjoy ....those days are over.....i cant show wat i feel fr u....makes me sad,depressed..... THE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE....... miss u so much nanna..... :( :( :'( take care of urself....

the time i was born ,i dont know where i'll end in my life ,but i know that i follow and should follow and will follow my parents... the time i reached my schooling, i dont know with whom i should make friends with, how to behave, how to talk, how to respect, and every thing, but i know , there r my parents behind me to teach me these things. the time i was in teens, i know how to think , how to manage my life, how to do things very well, but i dont know what my parents r thinking about me... but i know that im following them and also will follow them throughtout my life.... coz i know WHO I AM....im their daughter and they are my life....