my life my rules

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Someone dear to me said that I'm doing absolutely amazing, am happy and all fine as I am. And i need not and should not dig deep into my part trauma or wounds and fix them.  What I really feel is, it's very important to dig out the emotions which were suppressed. Which were covered up with a smile, a micro break, by being busy, by hustling, by just not talking about it. Which were all basically buried.  On the face of it, it looks like we are getting intentionally depressed or choosing to be sad and not moving on in life, dwelling in the past or not seeing the bright things in life.  But the reality is, we are just choosing to do the right thing. Working on it, taking a step completely knowing it is going to hurt, it is going to shake you up, actually coming face to face with your inner demons, which is actually impeccable. 

 I had 2 incidents last couple of months, with kids. As usual, when I meet a kid, somehow there is always something to learn.  So, he is a 5-year-old, and it's his annual day celebrations. These days schools charge a certain amount for the costume and makeup, no more self-tutorials and adjusting clothes available in the home or borrowing cousins' clothes for the event. His mom was all geared up to see him rock and roll on the stage. And trust me, he got some cool moves, shaking those little knees and crossing his tiny hands across.  Not just the money, she had to take some special permissions to make his big day on stage work, so obviously she was excited. Now, time for the big surprise. He went on to the stage, stood at the corner, holding a girl's hand and smiling, and watching the drone above him pass by. Just stood there all the 4 minutes of the song. The mom was running here and there, trying to get a glimpse of him, with her camera, to shoot his cool moves and his f...